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The occult seemed to satisfy his craving for fulfillment, until serious and terrifying side effects of darkness undid him. Only truth could set him free.

I grew up in Germany in a broken home. My parents had divorced, but in later years, reunited and lived together. During those years, I received very little love and attention. My life seemed completely empty and I was desperate for love and fulfillment. In my desperation, I began to look for something that would fill the void in my life, and that is when I discovered occult learning methods, card reading, and the pendulum. Little did I know that I had fallen into one of Satan's deepest deceptions and I was being drawn into his darkness.

Night after night I left the lights on to find some relief …

I was looking for love, but the only thing that filled my life now was terrifying fear, but still I continued. During the nights, I would wake up shaking and sweating, frightened by what felt like the presence of someone or something in my room. Night after night I left the lights on to find some relief from fear, but the fear only grew more powerful leading to terrifying nightmares.

During one terrifying dream I woke up so completely gripped with fear that I jumped out of my bed and right through the glass window. I stood outside, barefoot, with hundreds of shattered pieces of glass all around me. Remarkably there was not one single cut on my body.

In 1965 I immigrated to Canada. Residing in Toronto, and still very hungry for the supernatural, I discovered night school courses that taught tarot card reading and fortune telling. I enrolled. After completing one course I signed up for another, only this time for a more advanced class. These courses had an intense impact on my life. Again, placing myself in darkness, I began to practice card reading in school and later in people's homes.

One day I woke up with a great deal of heart pain. I shared this with a co-worker who began to talk to me about Jesus, in whom I had no interest. The heart pain increased. Several heart specialists gave me different tests, but no abnormalities were found. I began to realize that my occult dealings were dark, complex, and dangerous. Afraid of losing my life, I began to listen to the advice of my co-worker, who without my knowing, was already praying for me. With the continuous experience of heart pain and the fear of dying, I knew I had to do something to get out of the darkness I was in.

On November 21, 1978, I was invited to invited to a Christian church meeting, which I attended. It was there that I experienced God's miraculous power. He not only set me free, but He also filled me with what I had needed right from the beginning—love.

Thank God for His grace, mercy and love that came into my life through faith in His Son. The peace of God filled my entire being. From that very day the desire for the occult was no longer a part of my life. No longer was I gripped with fear. I slept like a newborn baby.

Only dark things can grow in darkness. There is no love or peace there. I discovered that these only come from God. The Jesus my co-worker told me about is real and He made a powerful difference in my life. The Bible says in John 8:36: "So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed." Praise God!

Originally published in Off the Fence, December 2005/January 2006.

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